Recently a realization has been brought to my attention -- thanks to someone I will probably never see or hear from again.
I have had the pleasure of meeting and working with some pretty extraordinary people over the past six or seven years. For those of you who know me personally, I don't tend to boast...or name names. This is strictly because I feel I have nothing to prove to anyone. So you won't find the name of the person who helped me recently in this or any future blog posts.
Between the time of high school and graduating university, I have made a lot of choices to please other people. These people have been anyone from family to significant others. Some of my family have always thought my ambitions were silly or far too unrealistic. Because of this, I have made choices in order to please them and not myself. In these past few months I have grown a bit resentful. I believe this feeling has come about because as time goes on, no matter where I have been, be it my home state, New York, Colorado and most recently England, I have met people that seem to continue to validate my original life ambitions.
This person...who I can say is very successful in a field I have always dreamt of working in, has once again made me question why I never kept my original promises to myself. In coming to this realization I have found myself in quite an emotional state...not for me or the possibility of wasted time but because I feel guilty that I may be acting selfish.
A dear friend of mine has reminded me that what I feel is not selfish because in the decisions I've made I have been selfless. I have put others before myself numerous times. I really think it's time for me to have a think and start putting myself first for a change. So, this may be my last blog post for a while. Please feel free to continue following me on Instagram and Twitter. Feel free to continue emailing me too...I love hearing from everyone. [email@example.com]
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Hope 2013 finds you meeting your goals and setting bigger ones!